I guess now is as good a time as any to let everyone know what my deal is.
Let me just start it off like a Band-Aid: I’m not going to be coming back to U of M next year. There, aren’t ya glad that’s over?
Now, the details. Over the past two years I have met a lot of amazing people, most of whom I consider to be some of my best friends. Between my 4th Hinsdale Family, my 3rd Palmer Extended Family, and anyone else who may have come into my life at random points throughout these past years, I think I did alright for myself. Y’all touched my life in ways you may not even know. Don’t kid yourselves, I touched yours too ;). All this being said there have been some bad times in my own life that have led me to believe that it’s time to make some changes.
I can’t think of a better way to do this, so I’m going to set up a little Q & A to answer all those questions that are going through your heads.
— It all boils down to my happiness. These past two years have been rough on me. I just don’t think I’m built for the college town life, ya know? The parties, the people, the whole experience just isn’t ME. I’ve spent more days in misery than in joy simply because everyone’s out having a good time and I’m in my room. I’ve felt mildly depressed almost everyday since I’ve been on campus. That’s not what college is about, is it? “Your depression is your fault Charlie. You can change that.” Oh, are you me? Do you know what’s going on in MY head? No, you’re not and you don’t. The lectures about how things can change need to stay at the doorstep because only I am me and only I know how I feel. Long story short, U of M isn’t for me. No it didn’t take me two years to figure that out, it just took me two years to dwell and to TRULY understand it. Trust me, it’s been on my mind since early last year. Life is far too short to remain unhappy. It’s up to us to find/create our own happiness.
That should be enough. If you’re just DYING to hear more reasons, let me know and I’ll be glad to fill you in.
2. Where are you going?
— Assuming everything goes smoothly in the transfer process, I’ll be heading to IPFW (Indiana University – Purdue University Fort Wayne) next fall. The degree I’ll be getting will basically be from Purdue, it just won’t be from the main campus.
3. Are you still majoring in film?
— Sort of. The degree equivalent is a BA in Media and Public Communication with a minor in Film Studies. Once I graduate I’ll have everything I need to continue down the path of TV Production. Where that path leads me, no one knows.
4. IPFW sounds like a shitty school. Have fun NOT getting a U of M degree.
— Dude, shut your mouth. Just because my degree isn’t going to have a block M on it doesn’t mean I won’t be successful. I’m still determined to make it in my field and be the absolute best. IPFW is convenient for many reasons. 1) It’s accredited and most of my credits SHOULD transfer without much hassle. 2) It’s closer to home. Many of you know I’m a family-oriented man, so being a quick drive away from much of my family will do me some good. 3) I’ll be able to get a job, an apartment, and still go to school in a familiar place. I’ll be independent and I’ll be happy. Why question that?
5. Will you visit?
— Do you even have to ask? I love all of you guys and wouldn’t just disappear forever. I still won’t be terribly far away, so visitations are a must. How long can an average human being go without a healthy dose of Charlie? I don’t think it’s very long. I will be back, trust me :).
It has taken me quite a long time to muster up the courage to let all of you know this, so I hope I got the point across. Letting y’all know isn’t easy on me, but let’s just treat this as a good thing. We’ll all lead awesome lives in the end and stay in touch the whole time through. Happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts.
Now…we have ONE month left until this semester is over! Let’s make the best of it.